valeriesucks.

2008-09-06T13:13:00.003+08:00

hahahah, back to updating ya! :D
this week had been rather fruitful, but sad case, september hols are ending sooooon!

stayed home the whole monday.
spent time studying and doing homework.

tuesday,
met up with ahdey for breakfast in the morning.
then cabbed to serangoon with boonchuan for attachment.
met up with viv after work, brought her fillet! :D
went bugis, j8 and back to amk, finally bought the present lah!
7pluss,texted aihui, went macs to wait for kiacher,
then came to my house, aihui ton with me. while kiacher went home at 2am.
talked alot, damn funny!

almost couldnt wake up the other day.
but then heng, wasnt late for dance.
quite slack, after that went to meet rose with vivian.
i was the one who said wanna study, but ended up sleeping.
cause the weather was cold and comfy. :D
LG called and asked me work. ):

down crew until damn jialat, but lucky stopped delivery order.
that leaves me with nothing to do except sleep. :DD
punched out early, cause i was too tired.

slept till 12noon next day. viv texted me and met up at amk mrt.
then went to meet monkey and co.
went kpool and then town.
walked around, watched my sassy girl.
super boring, i ended sleeping, playing games and throwing popcorns.
i swear my dream was weird and funny!

me: i hungry leh.
monkey love: oh, go where?
lek kang: lucky plaza play pool.
me: go there eat balls ah,

played arcade, damn fun. but then i was really damn hungry.
whole day ate only 3 ice creams. D:
reached home at 12am. :D

woke up late next day.
but then still managed to reach on time, cause laoshi was late also.
learnt new steps.
after that ate at bbtea shop and homed.
slepttttt till 8plus. then chatted with ahdey.

sat, woke up at 11plus.
prepared, watching concert with viv later on!

2008-08-30T23:31:00.003+08:00

hahah, i know my blog is rotting already.
but com is spoilt, and idk how to fix it. hehe.

cant really remember how i spent the week,
but i know yesterday's celebration was great!
i bet those teachers are really touched by those videos uh.
met up with tracy in the morning for mcgriddles,
had aces day, much more fun than i expected. especially when the whole class is so into it, cause mdm lim say the best class get a box of goodies! :D
had free apples, then headed to hall for concert.
LOL, i'm a lightbulb huh. heh!

then met up with viv. trained to ps in search of something,
saw one big big big _____ that is damn cute, but viv dont want. D:
off to bugis, slacked around and i bused home, while viv went to meet her mum and sis.
sigh, we've got no idea what to buy.
and anyone, can lend us an ovennnnn. HAH!

300808, woke up at 11plus.
then cooked maggie mee again, made a mess in the kitchen. :X
bro woke up, and ordered mac delivery.
it turned out to be waileong! hah,
went to work at 3, did MDS with faezah.
suddenly felt like drinking bbtea, so got riders to buy for me if they happen to pass by a bbtea shop.
heeeees, but the honeydew milktea sucked big time. and i promised to get waileong, koh, zeki and faezah bbtea tmrw. wheeeeez
oh, scalded myself, cause zeki kept distracting me. < FAKE!
the scar look so freaking weird, three lines. :X

slacked and homed at 11pm.
there's work tmrw, :D

2008-08-16T13:27:00.002+08:00

finally, it's saturday.
had sucha a busy week and now it's time for a rest.

yesterday wasnt quite a nice day.
it started off fine, until i heard something which kind of pissed me off.
RAH.
then assembly and lessons as usual.
had a little conflict during CI.
maybe ya, we should just understand them. afterall, they just wanted the class to be neater.

ate at coffeeshop after skul.
and then managed to pack history file and submit it on time.
played volleyball with cheeian and vivian during malay lessons.
then headed for dance.
shadnt say much about dance, cause ...

dinnered with vivian and dad fetched me home at around 8pm.
did some revision, watched tv and sleeeeeeep.

well, idk what i can say to make you feel better. seriously.
the more you tell me you are fine, the more i'm worried.
call me if you need me.

hey, it's between me and him.
even if there's any problem, you dont have the right to comment on me.
what's about the " ni zuo stead zuo dao zhe yang" and the "ni shi you stead de ren"
come on lah, if he thinks i'm sucha lousy stead ask him to come and tell me straight.
and so what if i'm attached, i did tell him right from the start that i need freedom right.
as your girlfriend, i'm not a bird that you can cage.

2008-08-14T20:23:00.002+08:00

woke up late this morning, but lucky, reached skul on time. :D
if not late must stand on the stage, like so paiseh please.
lessons as usual.
after skul went to com lab to finish the essay and did xiao laoshi project with jayne, courteney and retard.
then homed at around 4plus.

i know you are afraid that my feelings for you will fade.
for that, i'm not sure also.
i will try and sustain the relationship. but really, i can only do my best to.
the rest is up to you, if you aint serious about me, please, dont toy me. :X
dont tell me you love me when you dont,
dont tell me you care for me when you aint.

ah sister !
i'm so gonna save money to buy many many bunches of bananas for that monkey of yours! :D
hah. i love youuuuuuuu.

2008-08-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

retard, you know you needa stand strong. even after a fall.
i understand that you feel bad for losing 9 specs in one and a half year,
you blame yourself for being so forgetful. but you didnt expect things to turn out like that right.
you didnt want your specs to go missing, neither did you want to lose your cam, your wallet, your ezlink right ?

i'm not trying to say that you shouldnt blame yourself at all, but seriously you are putting too much pressure on yourself. really, i will write an essay, to teach you how to de-stress. i want to see a happy retard okay. :D

2008-08-13T19:26:00.002+08:00

1. The person who tag/pass you is
- jiahui, vivian.

2. Your relationship with him/her is
-friends, sister. :D

3. Your five impression of him/her
-pretty, pretty, still pretty.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
-hmm, jiahui ah. pei me go sickbayyyy. :D
-vivian, we did a lot leh. HAHAH!

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you.
-jiahui, not sure leh.
-vivian ah, hahaha. forgot leh. :X

6.If he/she become your lover, you will
-cherish a millions !

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on
-entertaining meeeee.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will
-cannot be de lah.

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be
-no such thing de nor.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is
-hug vivian !
-hmm, jiahui ah. we go sickbay sleep again. :D

11. Your overall impression of him/her is
-GREATTTTT.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you
-i dont know.

13. The characters you love of yourself are
-eh...

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are
-ehhhh..

15. The most ideal person you want to be is
-MEEEEE !

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them
-i loveeeeee you ! :D

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you .

[random order]
1- vivian
2- kaixian retard
3- ruiting
4- bimbo
5- zoey
6- monkey
7- haohao
8- aihui
9- meiru
10- rose

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with? [monkey]
> VIVIAN POH !

19. Is no.9 a male or female? [meiru]
>half half.

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? [haohao and rose]
>noooooo way !

22. What is no.2 studying about? [retard]
>how to become more retarded.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? [ruiting]
>today ?
24. What kind of music band does no.8 like? [aihui]
>dont know,

25. Does no.1 have any siblings? [vivian]
>yupppp.

26. Will you woo no.3? [ruiting]
>if i can. :D

27. How about no.7? [haohao]
>hmmmmm.

28. Is no.4 single? [bimbo]
>ask her yourself. :D

29. What is the surname of no.5? [zoey]
>CHIA

30. What 's the hobby of no.10? [rose]
>dream of me.

31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well? [zoey and meiru]
>they dont know each other well.

32. Where is no.2 studying at? [retard]
>retarded skul.

33. Talk something casually about no.1 [sister]
>she is my best sisterrrrrr.

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6? [monkey]
>HUHHHH, NEVER ! he has got vivian alr.

35. Where does no.9 live at? [meiru]
>amk.

36. What colour does no.4 like? [bimbo]
>PINKKKK

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend? [bimbo and vivian]
>nah.

38. Does no.1 have any pets? [vivian]
>no.

39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? [haohaoi]
>certainly not!

40. What is no. 6 doing now? [monkey]
>i dont know./

2008-08-11T12:36:00.004+08:00

yesterday

let pictures do the talking ! :D

but the day didnt went well, sorry meiru. D:

homed at 8plus.

today

going over to zoey's house later to complete the lit project.

and i'm taking the one hour long trip from amk to woodlands. :D

i'm caught in a game, where you are the one controlling the rules.

i will end it, anytime you want.

2008-08-09T13:32:00.003+08:00

hah ! yesterday is sucha nice date, 080808.
once in a lifetime.

woke up at 9plus yesterday and reached skul at 1010.
cause i didnt wanna participate in the IPP, but i wanna see the dance performance.
hehe, then went canteen find kaixian they all, chatted for awhile and off to hall for concert.
it's damn uber nice i swear. especially the dance. :D
plus, mr khoo's singing is nice x 10000
i like ! :D

after that went and meet vivian.
then slacked around hub with tc and co.
sat at coffeeshop, and played with my pikachu. :D
hah! they almost lost my pikachu, but then xianfu, viv and tc managed to find it back for me !
thankyouuuu. :D
trained to tua. then 6plus send vivian to kranji and back to tua again.
slacked and talked alot.
homed at 11.

idk why, reached home seh seh.
not sure if i said anything wrong. OOPS.

ahhhh, vivian is at johor nowwww.
D:

2008-08-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

i'm not sure of what i want,
i'm not sure of what you want,
sorry for being sucha coward, cause i really couldnt bring myself to face reality.
it seriously sucks. D:

all these while, i thought you changed into another person.
but till that conversation that we had, i realised you hasnt.
many things happened in between, yet you told me nothing.
you kept it all inside your heart,

you appeared brave, but you aint.
those fake smiles that you wear to show that everything's fine, come on you know it's not gonna help.
thank you for teaching me so many stuffs, i know i can always count on you.

2008-07-29T19:50:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM ! ( the best mum ever, i love you. :D)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XUANPU !

woah, finally finished maths, sci and eng free writing paper.
plusplusplus, napfa test ! :DDDD

but i screwed maths and science paper up. :X
i dont understand why everyone can get to that equation but i cant.
RAHHHH. andandand, science. sex cells have single chromosomes rightttt.
if there are 8 pairs, then there should be 4single whatttt.
but i go put 8 as the answer. -.-

tsk, forget it lah, it's over alr.

oh! attire check this morning is like shitsxz.
there's one teacher, who came over and barked at our class.
she claimed that girls from our class are having a fashion show, reason being cause all our socks are not covering the ankle bone. =.=''
crap lah, ankle socks cover ankle bone. might as well say dont wear ankle socks better right.
lameeee.

我想个隐形人,
逗你开心, 逗你笑,
但你永远看不见.

27 july passed. i spent the whole day at home.
thinking if the fault lies in me or in you.
for days, you hasnt been texting me. today you told me i was cold towards you.

i tried asking myself if feelings had faded.
sad to say, i dont know myself. D:
right now, i can assure you. i still carry hope, that this relationship will last.

2008-07-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

shen huo shui bi,
geog workbook,
eng essay,
compre,

all doneeeee. :D
now i'm only left with

maths weekend worksheet 3,
science mindmap ,
geog water conservation mindmap,
time article work,
zuo wen corrections,

stressed. exams starting next week.
i dont wanna fail maths anymore. common test 4, i scored 15/4o
tell me what kind of results is this mans.
time to buck up alr ! :D

2008-07-22T19:08:00.002+08:00

rah ! i'm so bored bored bored nowww. D:
today is elearning day, all andersonians are supposed to stay at home and complete the online lessons.
hahaha, so nice rightttt.

but then i did only some of the online work, and went out to meet ruiting after that ! :D
trained all the way to outram park and waited for the shuttle bus to SGH.
we bought sandwiches to eat, it looks so cool okayyy. you just have to pay, and the sandwiches will drop from the machine.
god damn YUMMY ! :D

then she went for her checkup.
i played music, studied a little and spent the rest of the time watching television. :D
went to khatib after that and ate pizzaaaa !
had been eyeing that shop for quite some time alr, finally got to taste it !
YUM YUM YUM! :DDDDD
homed after that.

okay, gotta go finish up my homework le.
& it's wednesday tmrw. skul starts at 8.30am ! :DDDD

oh ! i got a new phone alr.
so peepo, text me your number ! but sigh, i used my own money to pay. D:

2008-07-21T18:59:00.002+08:00

racial harmony day today.

actually wanted to change to indian costume, but then the shirt too short, then like kuku monster, so end up never.

lessons as usual.

and i finished my english essay okay ! like finally.

then had recess and maths next. she taught us measuration, but i dont understand lor.

nevermind, i got a veh nice tutor, zoey chia ! YAY !

science was alrights, mr leow damn cute lah. especially when he self intro.

after skul went to eat and homed.

oh ya ! i lost my phoneeeeee. D:

damn sad please. wonder which bitch or bastard go steal.

but nevermind, papa, monkey and vivian are getting a new one for me !

YAYYYYYY ! happyhappy. hahaha. joking lah.

hurhur, i also damn scared lahhhh.

viviannnn, sisters together ! :D

i love you lah dey.

2008-07-14T19:51:00.002+08:00

i just hope that all that we thought aint true.
cause if so, it would be so damn scary please.

all four of us have the same thinking all these while.
just that no one dared to voice out. cause we have no evidence, nothing.
he did warned me about it before, but i didnt bothered to heed his advice.

hypocrite, that's what you are.
i dont blame you, i just blame myself for being too naive.
i sat down and think it over, i could actually piece everything together.
and the conclusion is, the whole thing seemed to be linked to you.

i dont know if you are doing this out of spite or jealousy. but please, we are once friends.
no, maybe all these while, you have just been using me. never have you treat me as a friend.
those stories are just lies that you have made up, to lead me to your trap.

2008-07-11T21:34:00.004+08:00

okay, pictures of the weeeeeek. YAY !

shall blog about monday, outing with viviannnn.

met up at around 1plus and bused to tampines.

reached alr damn sad, cause mango shop doesnt sell mango tee anymoreeee. D:

OUT OF STOCK, like wth lah.

so shopped around and homed at around 7plus.

tuesday had dance rehearsal at punggol pri.

mrs poh commented that the dance was greatttt.

the other performances were very very nice lah.

after that changed and all, then took bus home.

breakfast at canteen with zoeyyyy on wednesday.

then headed back to class cause no assembly.

lessons as usual, then had cca after that.

homed with little viviannnnnn. :D :D :D

thurs, forgot what happened leh.

but hahaha, had lunch with zoey at hub.

then met tracy, bridget and geraldine halfway and slacked till 6plus.

bused to meet up with mum, then went all the way to pasir ris.

dad fetched us home at 9plus.

cabbed to skul this morning.

cause zoey called me and told me she reached alr.

all slacking lessons.

music was funnn. cause not ms lau, it's ms YAP !

no more "i'm annoyed", coooool.

PE next. ran 3rounds around skul.

timing was like 20.27. hahaha.

then pushups and stuffs.

recessed. after that had science, did SRP presentation.

did nose piercing for our new friend, ANGELINA ! :D

slept during mother tongue.

class interaction and malay. then danceeeed.

sweated alot today, bought mirinda and homed.

well, the whole thing is so contradicting.

who knows one day i might just be the next person to jump off the building.

felt so disgusted.

i wanted to tell you, but i couldnt be sure that you wont tell her.

sometimes, tired is just an excuse.

2008-07-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

oh, how retard can i get mans.
all thanks to lim kaixian for passing the retard illness to me.
hurhur ! :D

tried sleeping early last night, but failed.
then chatted on phone till 3am in the morning.
the conversation was so funny lah, couldnt stop laughing.
glad that we are still as open as before ? :D

woke up early today for work, but still late. :X
then off-ed at 12noon. waited for tracy, then chatted with ivana.
after that we shifted place cause boss nagged.
talked to the riders, about green tea killing sperms.
hahaha, then ivana said something which sounds very wrong, make koh and andy horny.
LOL ! & we cant stop the ten dollars, forty five cents joke. X.x

then tracy peied me home to bathe and changed.
met up with rose after that while she went home.
bused to vivo, but it was a wasted trip afterall.
talked alot alot. slept on her shoulder on the bus trip back. too tired. D:
thankyouuu JIEJIE ! :D
bought a bag and homed after that. :D

meeting up with sister tmrw ! :D
lovelovelove!

2008-07-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

woah, it seems like i'm blogging once a week.
how cool. :D

well, forgot what happened on monday and tuesday le.
so yeah, just skip those two days and blog about wed. :D

actually wanted to meet ahdey for breakfast de. but then last minute didnt.
so met up with zoey and had sausage mcmuffin takeaway.
walked to skul and ate at canteen.
LOL, was jasmine's birthday. so aaron taught us how to sing birthday song. (((((:
then lessons as usual.

after skul didnt makan much. then chatted a little and off to dance.
danced with the costume.
then homed with vivian. :D

tried sewing something. but it looks weird.
erh, hope the ending product will look normal. :X
ahahahha. so and so,
like finally we talked again, & i wish everything you told me was true.

thurs was rather slack.
mrs kamal wasnt here againnn. :DDDD
usual lessons, chapter 6 of science is damnnnn nice. but i fell asleep. :X
then dnt was fine, just that i forgot to bring my picture and ended up rotting for some time. :X

then homed. kor and belly reached home before meeee.
hurhur. and the way they study is damn cuteeee. ahahah !
quickly changed and rushed over for work.
quite tiring, but nora is god damn niceeee, she let me learn delivery stuffs and extended my time till 9pm. :D

homed, bathed, did maths hwk and sleeeep. :DDDD

casual friday today.
took height and weight during PE.
luckily and unluckily, i didnt grow taller. D:
hurhur, weight was okay.

ate and went for lessons. skipped SRP presentation today.
then CI, damn mrs kamal mans.

went over to coffeeshop for awhile and back to skul.
pei vivian at 2/7. talked alot of crap ! hahahaa.
then attended malay at her class, after that changed and went for dance.
super tiring today, sweat alooooot !
managed to carry xinlin steadily a few times, but she slipped once. :X

then went to look for cheeian for my phone, THANKS ALOT ! :D

dinner at sumo house with vivian.
TALKED again, hahaha. :DDDD
love her damn loads. & i know she know you dont know.
YAY ! then bused home at 7plus.

2008-06-27T20:28:00.002+08:00

wow. my blog is like rotting soon.
nevermind, i'm back to blogggg. :DDDD

couldnt remember much about the week.
but quite a tiring week uh.
had dance on monday, to train more for the SYF dance at heartland mall.
then rushed to work, was late. :X

forgot what actually happened on tuesday alr. :X
then wednesday had dance again. tried and ban tui, but veh tough eh !
mustmustmust train hard mans ! cant lose to herrrrr, RAHSXZ.
then homed with vivian. another heart to heart talk.
sister, thanks alot. i felt alotalot better !
dont worry, that conversation shall be kept secrettttt. :DD

thurs.
walked to skul with TRACEH kang!
hahaha, damn funny. then went to canteen and back to class for lessons.
slacked alot. i remember sleeping thru the whole of english lesson. :X
did monolouge, mr cumming said i was like a choochoo train.
then met up with tracehhhh (paiseh, made you wait soooo long.)
walked to hub. shopped around and around in search for ahdey's present.
lunched at KFC and bused to macs.

homed, bathed and out again.
sent her to bus interchange and i went off to meet ahdeyyyy. (HEARTSSS !)
celebrated his birthday ! i tried to surprise him with the cake, but thanks to the wind, for blowing out the candle after i managed to light it.
but still, quite a fun day.
8plus, he pei me wait for bus. passed him his present and card before i boarded the bus.

happy first month anniversary ahdey ! :D
i love you, now and always.

dad drove me to skul today.
cause i left my pouch at home and i've no ezlink card. D:
then sat at canteen till bell rang.

music first, thought changed teacher but still ms lau.
laughed alot.
changed and had pe next. were asked to run 2rounds outside skul.
considering the fact that we hasnt been running for 2months or so, our stamina quite good le lah.

after skul went opposite to eat with zoey.
chit chattttttt and back to skul.
managed to finish up my design journal and had another nice chat with vivian. hurhur ! :D

malay and dance.
xinlin wasnt here. so i danced alone. how sad. D:
then i forgot some of the steps, and laoshi saw! :X
homed with viv after that. COCOA SNOWBLEND ROCKS ! :D

finally, the week is like over.
can sleep till late afternoon le! :D

2008-06-20T13:39:00.005+08:00

things are like that all these while i guess, just that i'm too naive. to think that i can ever change

those facts. D:

17june

maths remedial in the morning and went to hub with retard to meetup with jarl.

it's like ages since i last met up with him luh !

went to have lunch at macs and played hand games. wow, i'm like sucha a proooo. :D

guess what, we saw this weird looking monster, walking around hub.

then watched the happening, it's damn gross but worth watching.

saw koh at hub, after that homed cause i'm working at night.

thanks daddy, for the tickets ! :D

retard, the conversation that night, it's meant to be a secret.

no worries, one day i will let her know everything.

somehow or rather, it's not her fault that such things happen.

so yeah, we are just gonna treat as we dont know anything and carry on with life, as per normal.

hope things turns for the better as time passes :D

oh ! and hur, dont take her words to heart lah.

you know from now on, you need to buck up on dance and have more confidence in yourself !

come on mans, my retard cant possibly be sucha loser right ! :D

you had been there whenever i need you, so this time, i wont let you watch your life crumble.

remember, it's actually dance that brought the few of us so close together.

18june

had dance in the morning, damn uber tiring.

headed straight home after that. cause something happened and spoilt chuang ruiting's mood. D:

babe, you know what i'm going to say right.

so just ignore all her words and train hard for dance.

to be a little mean, she's nothing to you lor.

cheerup ! sunshine comes after storm. :D

19june

returned to school for one hour to try on costumes.

then headed to plaza sing with kaixian in search for that bag daddy said.

but ended up buying another one, cause those bags are too expensive nah. D:

bombed tracy up and met up with her.

bugis-ed and spent alot.

then bused back to amk.

sorry tracy, wasnt feeling that well last night.
i'm sorry that i still need to rush back for work and asked you to pei me all the way. D:
seriously, thanks for always standing there for me,
still, i love you so.

talked on phone with viviannnn.

honey, standard question comes with standard answer right.

dont think too much nah, i trust one day if that's gonna happen, you will still stand strong de ya! :D

2008-06-14T23:21:00.004+08:00

090608, morning had breakfast with ahdey and his sister.

MACS, damn niceeee.

after that, went out with rose and vivian
i thought i was early lah, but endup i was the last to reached. Paiseh uh. :X
then trained to vivo. walked around, ate and played water.

4plus, back to amk, sat at basement and chatted. :D

homed with mum after that.

thanks for the day mans ! :D

( sorry for the short post, cause i forgot the details. )

crew outing on 120608.

was bombed up by tracy, then prepared and met up with her and caiyi at macs.

then listen to raymond's speech~ and then took bus to ECP.

didnt intend to play in the sea, cause we never bring extra clothes lah.

awhile later, tracy was thrown in by ivana, lingjing and caiyi. i thought i was safe lah, but hahah, i was next mans. =.=

LOL !

heh, then played games, camwhored and free time !

threw raymond, crayton and LG into the seaaaaa. :D

but then i was thrown in again. Zzz

stephen escaped, cause he managed to bluff everyone that he was having a headache.

cycled, skated and bbq-ed.

then chatted with tracy and ...

rahhhh, i dont like syjie ! he can work overnight i cannot ! hahaha!

& & & sorry tracy uh, LG told me he was coming. D:

i didnt know he would disappear in the end.

dont emooo lah. i love you always mans.

homed at 11pm. :D

one word, funnnn.

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was supposed to start work at 7am.

but then i woke up at 7.o7am and reached at 7.45am.

raymond was there, but he didnt say anything leh. HENG sial. :DDD

but he quite nice luh, taught me many stuffs. :D

ran counter and runner.

ida told me something. HAHAHA ! damn funny.

punched out at 2pm.

waited for ivana with lingjing and boonchuan.

had HAPPY MEAL lehhh!

okay, i thought we are damn crazy, we bought a total of 6sets of happy meal.

how cool right. for me, boonchuan, lingjing, ivana, my aunt and koh.

actually, we only wanted the toy luhh. :DDD

now i got a monkey, shifu and tigeress ! hahaha

homed at 4plus and slept till 8plus.

wheee, now i sleeping againnnn. :D

2008-06-08T20:43:00.003+08:00

i love xinlin tooooo. :D

heh ! hasnt blogged for 5days.
had been rather busy these few days, and i'm sooooooo tired luh. :X

yesterday went to wild wild wet, cause mum's company held their family day there.
had alottttt of fun with belicia and korkor. :D
ahaha, left at around 2plus.
went to macs, and worked.
then left at around 11pm, after chatting with caiyi.
she damn cute luh. :D
and tracy must be damn happy, cause koh is there last night. :DDDD
ahdey called me and chatted till around 12plus then sleptttt. (hearttttts.)

this morning woke up at 8am.
super early ! D: but i was almost late. :X
heh, i wanna do runner,
but marrrrk dont allow. D:

hahaha, was actually supposed to work tomorrow night,
then crayton overheard me telling caiyi i wanna disappear tomorrowwww. :D
so he asked and cancelled my time slotttt !
wheeee! thankyouuuu.

worked extra until 4pm.
then crayton told me that tracy and i are attached to the macs at hougang on 16june.
eewwww, sounds so stranger. :X
but nevermind, help crayton out.
hope people over there would be nice and easy going.
(ahahah, later last minute we disappear. :X)

homed at 4plus and slept till nowwww. :D
outing tmrw with rose and vivian. LOVES ! :D

2008-06-03T14:39:00.005+08:00

kind of missed her right now.

dont know why. yesterday the text that i recieved from her shocked me.

i thought something happened. but no, it's just a plain msg.

she looks strong, or i shld say she THINKS she is strong. but sad to say, she isnt.

a girl with a fragile heart, she needs protection.

i just pray hard that things, will always go on smoothly for her.

having a character totally opposite from mine, people wonder why we can still be as close.

i have no answer to that.

but i know, no matter what happens, i promise i will always be there for you.

vivian poh, i love you.

stupid kaixian.

being equally retard, we have the same character, same mentality but different problems.

hahaha, thankyou anyway. for always listening to my rants.

tracy kang !

the cute little dumb girl.

who always go " please proceed to your left" and "thank you see you again" with me.

hahahah! i love you tons, millions and zillion.

meiru HOW

hahaha, baby. i seriously love your surname alot !

thanks for being the who is always there for me,

chatting with me when i'm bored.

the girl who asks me out and yet have no idea where to go.

why in the world did i meet sucha silly baby, i dont know.

but get this clear, no matter what happens, i love you still.

(it's okay if you find this paragraph weird, i'm only trying to use who, where, what, why, when, cause your surname is how.)

hey, i miss ppl like victoria and zoey also lah !

plus plus, xinlin, rose and juliana honeyyy ! :D

2008-06-01T19:53:00.003+08:00

wow, hasnt been blogging for like 1234567 days ! :D
forgot what i did on most days leh. :X

these few days have been out with meiru.
damn niceeeee luh. had a longggg talk and yeah, felt so much better and loved !
wheeee, thanks baby. you made my day fufiling. i love youuuuu. :D

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met up with haohao, lek kang, aaron, mango, esther, and some idk who.
ahahah, went to some old school. damn fun !
homed at 8am plus.
bathed and prepared.

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went to bedok with vivian.
kind of got dua by that ass.
bastard sial, made us wait like kuku monster.
nevermind, forget it.

homed at 11plus.
ate and slept.

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woke up at 3plus.
wowwwww, hahah ! :D
then ate and met up with meiru.
homed at 7plus.

my lovely mrs ang ! :D

2008-05-24T21:22:00.004+08:00

woke up damn early. did stuffs and went out to meet vivian !

had a niceeee day with her. chatted alot alot ! hahaha.

took bus to somewhr, then back to orchard and lastly amk hub !

ate andersens ice creammmmmm. YUMMY !

homed at 9pm. ((((:

2008-05-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

I'm tagged by retard to do this ! (:

Name 20 people you can think of right now.

Don't read the questions until you've named the 20 people.At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.

(random orderwwzxzwx)
1. xaviera
2. ruiting
3. zoey
4. victoria
5. jasmine
6. vivian
7. tiancheng
8. xianfu
9. haohao
10. meiru
11. kaixian
12. kelly
13. tracy
14. kuanting
15. gladwin
16. cheeian
17. rose
18. juliana
19. xinlin
20. aaron

How did you meet [14]?[kuanting]
- eh talk on the first day los. not sure ley. :X

What would you do if you never met [1]?[xaviera]
- hahah, cannot be de lah. :D

What if [9] and [20] dated?[haohao and aaron]
- then it would be so interesting, cause both are guys.

Will [6] and [7] date?[vivian and tiancheng]
- hahah, it's a must. they are together.

Describe [3].[zoey]
- my only tall girlfriend. :D

When is the last time you spoke to [13]?[tracy]
- this morning ?

What is [2]'s favourite band/singer?[Ruiting]
-jay chou.

Would you ever date [4]?[victoria]
- oh come on, she's my affair.

Would you ever date [1]?[xaviera]
- eeyur, bimbo. hahsxz.

Is [19] single? [xinlin]
- hahah, she has got N alr.

What is [10]'s last name?[meiru]
- HOW, who, whr, what, why, when.

Would you ever be in a relationship with [11]?[kaixian]
- NO WAY ! she's a retard leyyyy.

School of [3]?[zoey]
- anderson sec.

Where does [6] live?[vivian]
- SENGKANGGGGG.

What is your favourite thing of [5]?[jasmine]
- her skinnnnn. :D

Have you ever seen [2] naked?[Ruiting]
- hahah, havent leh.

5 people to do this quiz

- vivian
- tracy
- xinlin
- meiru
- rose

2008-05-21T21:19:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST MEI YOU REN ! :D

hahah, thanks alot for being there to hear my rants and everything.

and then always eating pizzahut with me !

heh, hope you like the doraemon given by kaixian and me !

made me look so kuku bringing the doraemon around.

rah, but still worth it lah. at least you LOVED it .

take good care of it hor, dont abuse my doraemon. (:

loveyou always. and hope all your wishes come true !

okay, the day was rather niceeee. except that i kept wanting to sleeeep. D:

had photo taking session today. hahah! wasted damn alot of time, therefore, no lessons !

and i seriously dont like Trixie lah. roar !

she gave me a red letter telling me im bottom six. i was like wth. cannot be wad, so i argued with her.

in the end she checked again, im not los.

worse still, she still thinks she is right and give me that damn bloody attitude. never even apologise.

FINE, forget it.

oh ya, got caught by mr ang in the morning.

scared me. i didnt know he would be standing there checking on us, ANDERSONIANS.

LOL.

dance was tiring. sweated like some water tap. :X

then walked to bus stop with vivian and homed.

wow, someone told me i damn act cute. :/

boh wei gong.

2008-05-18T17:27:00.002+08:00

hahah, hasnt been posting this few days.

16may

hahah, i forgot what happened in school.
had dance farewell party after school for the sec4 seniors.
it feels weird doing jibengong without those seniors around. but no worries, we juniors will train hard and clinch a gold with honours for the school and for you guys !
thanks alot, you all have been so nice, patient and loving towards us. all the best for your exams ! :DDDD

after that went hougang mall with viv, kai and jiankun.
had cheesy donut ! damn nice i tell you. ((((:
bused home at around 7.20pm.
then bathed and stuffs, went out again to zoey's house.
cause dad and mum are overseas, and bro went for DE.

slacked till around 12am. watched tv and used com.
thanks girl. (:
cabbed to tpy to meet aaron, mango and haohao.
then waited for aaron to bathe and stuffs. met up with lek kang, xiaobing and another girl.
watched them eat. walked to idk what block.

they played mahjong. i try and learn but dont understand leh.
just know something like ' not nice, dont want' hahah.
lek kang, xiaobing and aaron kept deesiaoing, teaching me the wrong things so that they can win. -.-
slept at 6plus. then woke up awhile.
lek kang damn funny. everyone slept at 8plus.

homed at 2pm.

17may

bathed, eat and met tracy at hub.
thanks meiru and shermaine for pei-ing me wait ! :D
bused to macs at 4pm.

hubed at 11pm. slacked around.
saw jonathan and aihui ! :D
then shermaine with her friends.

homed at 12am.
used com, chatted on phone and slept. (:
damnnnn tiredddd.

18may

bro woke me up at 1oam. prepared and went out.
took 24 to changi airport, cause dad and mum are coming home !
but got lost in the airport, dont know which terminal to go.
made them wait for almost an hour. :X

went home and out again for late lunch.
had dianxin. YUMMY !
then homed.
okay, i'm freaking tired. shall go sleeeeeeep ! :D

three cheers, monday no school ! :D

- shall upload photos another day .

2008-05-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

I PASSED MY MATHS !

felt so happyyyy. cause i didnt expect it. (:
okay, i worked damn hard for this day. here i come, my ice creammmmm ! :DDDD

but aiyah, i still failed lit.
i thought i understand snowball and napoleon, but without those quotation marks, it's equals to nothing. LOL.

ate pizza after skul with zoey.
then shopped around for contacts. hahaha.
and i got myself one pair of brown ones and zoey bought a pair of grey ones.
spent quite some time putting it on.
homed at 5plus.

come on babe, you understand the whole situation best. it's not like i wanna comment on anything. but i really felt pissed when i read those stuffs.
you thought you are going thru alot of stress, alot more than us. but the truth is everyone is facing the same amount of stress. count yourself lucky and be content, for your life is not as screwed up.
it's up to you if you wanna continue to have that thinking. really, i'm not trying to be mean. i just wanna let you know, your life is already quite fufiling.
although you didnt do well this term, but you have got nice siblings, a sister that understands you, a brother that jokes around with you. plus, you have a caring boyfriend. although he oftens have the thought that money solves everything, but i can tell, he love you alot. he cherishes you alot. be happy with what you have, for not everyone gets the kind of life you are experiencing.

2008-05-14T20:10:00.003+08:00

hahah, this picture was taken quite long ago. (:

got back test paper today. and i failed chinese paper for the first time. D:

slept thru history after that. LST was damn pissed and he said we kept picking on him. so no choice, everyone went to look for mr poh during recess to check for the answers. LOL.

then science. mr leow told me i could have achieved a better grade. and most of them are careless mistakes cause i didnt read the questions properly. WASTED! D:

rah, then had dance. happyhappy ! vivian and kaixian are dancing together with us ! :D wheeeee! walked vivian (siti maria! :X) to the bus stop after that and homed at around 7plus.

mum and dad are going overseas tmrw and returning on sunday ! no one to naggggg. :D COOLIO ! but wont have enough to spend lehhhh. and i think i will be late for school, cause daddy wont be around to wake me up. plus, my brother is sucha pig, i will end up waking him up lah. HAHAH!

alrights, i needa start saving up alr ! :D

i cant bring myself to face you. i cant get over you. i'm useless. OH YES IM. i felt so like a third party.

mr ong, iloveyou.

2008-05-13T18:43:00.013+08:00

rah, wasnt in a good mood this morning. fine, forget it.
then slacked thru the whole inline skating course.
cause dad wrote a letter, saying i'm unwell and i cant skate! wheeeeee. (:

watched transformers during movie screening. thanks retard for your leg! :DDDD
then around 12plus, both retards sneaked back to class, and had another heart to heart talk.
wow! make me feel so mature.

met vivian and went to macs. didnt managed to do my stuffs.
ate and had a nice chat with her, after so long.
then tracy and company came, and left soon after.
walked to hub at around 4plus. and homed at 5plus.
energy level - LOW ! D:

retard, thanks alot for everything. :D
&my precious sister, i love you always. :D

2008-05-12T21:20:00.005+08:00

the day was rather okay.

hahah, went discovery centre.

after skul went swensens, ruiting's sis damn nice okay.

she treated us to fries and earthquakeeeee. THANKYOO ! :D

then back to amk to meet up with tracy.

gotta go for some injection. waited like suakus lah.

then finally got the injection and left.

slacked around at hub. camwhored and homed at 7plus. (:

somehow, i realised you changed ; really.
is there something wrong ?
tell me if you treat me as a friend. my ears are always here. (:
cause the change in you, is just too sudden, and too shocking. D:

2008-05-10T22:25:00.005+08:00

stupid, i know [:

xaviera ho ! :D

the day was okay.

met xav at 1plus then trained to fareast.

shopped around and camwhored. damn enjoyed lah !

then homed, changed and met tracy at mrt.

wanted to go for that stupid injection. so walked all the way to blk 157.

we climbed more than 12o steps of stairs lah! end up the clinic closed. -.-

cabbed to toapayoh and homed at 9plus.

i dont know what's wrong also.

things kind of got out of hand.

i didnt want it to be like that. i really dont want.

but what has happen, had already happened. it's useless crying now.

2008-05-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

awwww, i'm so tired now. D:
heh. home econs exam today.
' processed food are food that are processed'

went to look for aaron with zoey and then trained down together to meet haohao.
slacked, ate and watch movie on internet.
damn nice lah! but i gotta rush off to macs. D:

did my stuffs until around 8plus.
had dinner with tracy. talked awhile and homed.
well babe, you promised to cheer up ! :D

2008-05-08T19:24:00.003+08:00

i hope lit will be okayyyy.

the paper was rather tough. but maths is still the worse.

after that bused to ruiting's house to sleep.

she cooked beehoon and otah ! damn niceeee.

trained back to amk and looked for tracy.

homed awhile later cause mum wasnt feeling well.

i think i have the worse brother on earth.

cause he's always trying to put me down and make me feel inferior.

wtf. say my studies like shit when his is no where better.

tell you what, i shall one day sew your mouth so that you cant talk.

2008-05-07T21:32:00.004+08:00

history should be fine. hahah.
i'm the only one sleeping. whoopes !

then slacked around. studied and homed.
after that took mrt to TPY to meet haohao, aaron and mango.
played this kind of fun game at his house. damn funny !
and we drank alot of water lah, making me keep wanting to pee.

and they steal my diary. D:
walked to another house. xiaobing and lek kang were there.
they damn cute lah. after that two other girls came.
took 88 back to amk with aaron and then bused home.
reached home at around 8plus. ((:

lit tmrw. i dont know anything. D:
dieeeeeeee. after that home econs and freeeee ! :DDDD

2008-05-06T20:29:00.003+08:00

woke up late today. then quickly prepared.
dad send me to mrt station and i walked to skul.
revised science with ruiting and zoey at canteen.
stupid orhkee cant seem to keep quiet. so didnt absorb much.

but the paper was rather okayy. a little tricky.
some questions dont know how to do. :X
after that hubed awhile and went to vic's house.
had pizza for lunch. (((:
studied, chit chat and i slept for awhile.
damn niceeeeee. after that bused to yishun with eugene and jared. jk send kaixian home. (:

thanks for pei-ing me wait for the bus yoh ! :D
& yeah, study hardddd.

idontknow why i'm feeling so lost last night.
seriously, mood swings aint niceeee. D:

2008-05-05T21:57:00.003+08:00

why must you be so nosey, as to poke your nose into everything.
yeah, so what if im your sister. you dont treat me like one right.
mum and dad were about to let me pierce my wrist, wtf must you interfere and make them change their minds.
stop it lah, i hate you like (inserts word)
fineeeeeeee.

i flunked my maths paper lahhh.
studied damn hard for it but aiyah. totally got no idea what's gradient and left 6 questions blank !
how cool can that get.
there goes my ice cream ! D:

2008-05-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

someone give me a knife, and let me stab myself and die. D:
i wannaaaa cry. shitsxz.
so screwedddddddddd.

2008-05-04T19:05:00.002+08:00

maths suck alot alot alot.
i dont wanna flunk maths this term. but sigh, shall see how tmrw.
hope the paper wont be as difficult. DDDD:
rahhhh. if i got a choice, I WONT EVER TAKE MATHS.
i believe many wont also. hahaha.

i want a wrist piercing ! :D
exam faster go go go ! :DDDDD

2008-05-03T21:00:00.002+08:00

rahs. hasnt been blogging for two days.
geo paper was okay. but i think i flunked my chinese paper.
i seriously dont know what the hell are the questions asking. LOL.
tell me i can go and die alr. hahahaha.
and maths paper is on monday. YES ! mathsssss.
shitsxz. how ? someone teach meeee whats indices !

had a great heart to heart talk with meiru.
thanks baby, you are greatttt.
homed at 8plus.

i wonder if our friendship is strong enough.
one day if she is gonna make us quarrel and break off our friendship, will she succeed?
i know you are a niceeee friend ; one that i'm proud of.
you try and tolerate my bad points ( i know there are many) and console me whenever i'm down.
we alr had two major quarrels, i dont want another one. pleaseeeee.
it's hard to patch back. DDD:
tell me our friendship can withstand all obstacles.

2008-04-30T17:04:00.003+08:00

rather moodless today. idk why. D:
studied wenshi at canteen before assembly. couldnt absorb ANYTHING.
and well, i got suan-ed until damn jialat by that monkey and orhkee! rahhhhhhh.

first period, wenshi test.
hahah, i think it will be a miracle if i pass! :D
then had history and recessed.

science was okay. and had 2h free period cause mrs chua wasnt here.
slacked in class with kaixian, ruiting and zoey. :DDD
ate, slacked and homed at around 4plus.

SLEEEEEEEPY !

i felt like crying today.
when i'm young, i used to dwell myself in all sorts of fairytales. be it cinderella or red riding hood. i loved them all.
i dreamt that my life would be happy and free from all unpleasant stuffs. but if only my dreams come true. D:
i tried my utmost effort to stay smiling everyday. today, i just couldnt hold it anymore.
let me cry, let me rest. i'm tired. i really am.

those stars, i couldnt figure out who they are meant for.
there's just this urge of folding, and this feeling that someone needs them.
well, tell me you want them, if you really want. :D

2008-04-29T18:26:00.003+08:00

lessons as usual. :D
couldnt understand maths. D:

recieved sms from aunt. she told me it was ben and jerry's free cone day !
damn happy. was asking around who wanna go and whr the hell is the nearest ben and jerry shop.
hahah, in the end haohao peied me go all the way to novena.
and we actually queued for like 45min plus. saw guangfu and company there.
the ice cream damnnnnn yummy lahhhhhhhhh. i want moreeeee.
then walked to velocity. had longjohns. :DDDD
shopped around and went to get DONUTS !
spicy cheese - damn niceeeeeee.
bought milk and homed.

thank you mr haohao ! :D

2008-04-28T20:55:00.002+08:00

the day was rather okay.
had a small tiff with mr kam. thought he was rather unreasonable but aiyah, that's his style.
LOL . afterall, it's over so forget it.

mr tan was damn pekchek with the class today. he shouted, but went out of tuneeee. whoopes.
hahah. the whole class laughed like mad.
after school went popular buy smth and ate at mos with kaixian, ruiting, vic and zoey before going home.
thanks zoey for teaching me how to fold stars ! :DDDD

reached home, tracy called.
prepared and went to meet her at hub. meiru, shermaine, baoer, vivian, bridget, tenia and meiyan were there.
after awhile, many left. leaving only me, tracy, meiru, shermaine and baoer.
chit chatted for quite some time.
met mum and walked home. she damn funny luh. make me laugh like siao.
LOL.

there's wenshi and chengyu test on wed.
idk anything. mr kam just read the text. HOW ?!

sad to say, but i found that you really changed.
or are you like that all along, just that i didnt know you well enough. D:

2008-04-27T20:00:00.004+08:00

i woke up at 9plus in the morning, idk why also. could have woke up later. -.-
watched tv all the way until mum and dad came home.
ate brunch together. :DDDD

then left to meet guokai at the mrt.
thanks for the gifts yeah. :D
trained back to amk while he alighted at yishun.
went to meet mum. shopped around amk hub.
i wanted to buy shoulder bag de los ! but dont know which one to buy.
forget it, shall go back next time to choose again. :D

was like a suaku at ntuc lah.
i ran from one end to the other to find the energy bars that mum wanted. -.-
saw jiahua there.
finally found those bars, but i lazy to queue. cause all the counters have sucha a long queue lahhhh.
went to GNC to buy instead. bought one for myself. :DDDD
macademia honey. super niceeeeeeeeeeee.
homed at 4plus.

slept from 5plus to 7plus.
skul tmrw. sighhhhhhhhh. exams coming !
retard(s), pei me revise !

tell me you love me again, will you ?
JOQF, ily.

2008-04-26T16:21:00.002+08:00

nothing much to blog about.
slept in skul for most of the time yesterday. freaking tired cause the effect of the medicine is still there. LOL.
had lit remedial and homed after that.
hub-ed at 8plus. waited for mum to finish her work and then homed together at 11plus.
saw stella at macs. (:

woke up at 11plus today.
2 missed call. one sms. LOL.
then used com until haohao called and chit chatted. :D

met mum at ntuc and had lunch together.
homed at around 4plus.
thanks guokai for pei-ing me sms ! :D
cheerup boy.

2008-04-24T20:16:00.006+08:00

i think the english paper should be okay bah.
report was about the same as kaixian's.
hahaha. then went mac study with them. chit chatted awhile and left at 4plus.

my family is quarrelling again. fuck.
aiyah, paste scotch tape over their mouth so that i can have peace at home.
someone tell me how, how can i make everyone at home happy ?

F-A-M-I-L-Y father and mother, iloveyou. :D

2008-04-22T22:33:00.003+08:00

walked in the rain to skul with zoey.
damnnnn cold luh. then chit chat awhile in the canteen and went to class.
trixie not even in class luh.

had geo remedial after skul until about 3plus.
homed at 4plus. damn tired.

someone teach me graph pleaseeeeeeeeeeee.
so sickening.

smile as thou nothing happened ! :D
lead life to the fullest , and cherish everyone around meeeeee.

2008-04-21T22:03:00.004+08:00

okay. tired tired tired. D:

lessons as usual. got back maths paper and i scored 9/1o !
damn happy please. :D

mr tan asked me to keep it uppppp. YAY !

english paper is on thurs. needa start revising on reports and compre + summaryyy.

eeeww.

gonna work out a timetable soon so that i can pass all subjects this term. :DDD

sigh, khairul is leaving since trixie is backkkk.

& & & i reached home at 3plus today. slept till 7plus 8pm.

i know im like a pigggg but come on, im tired okay. hahah.

dad and mum just reached home like 5min ago? WOW !

heh, super random and dumb post.

buhbye peepos ! :D

i had a nightmare. i dont know what is it that i dreamt about.

sounds weird, but the only one thing that i can remember is that i lost something.

i woke up crying. DDD:

it makes me think back to those photos. i'm sorry but i still cant stop loving you. D:

2008-04-20T20:37:00.004+08:00

sunday was spent, rotting at home. :D
but coolio, i managed to save some money.
afternoon, went to trim my fringe. but the auntie snipped it until it got so short. D:
damn, i look like some gong kia now lah. DDD:

vivian, smilesmile.

dont make me worry luhhhh.

& no matter wad happens, i'm here okayyyy.
nahnahnah, dont say i bad lah, lend you my shoulder los. veh shufu de neh.

know i repeat this alot alot of times le, you not sian i also sian liao.
but still, i must say, i love you alot. a million, a trillion, a zillion.
smuarkssss.

~~idontwant that ending~~.

2008-04-20T11:37:00.010+08:00

2008-04-19T21:31:00.003+08:00

woke up at 9plus today. damn early please.

prepared and met vivian at mrt. then went to develop pichos and went to do kaixian's birthday pressie ! :DDDD

hahah, spent quite some time on it. then met up with jasmine at around 2.3oplus.

bused to kaixian's house to eat pizza and cheese donut ! :DDDDD
they cabbed to amk hub cause they wanna watch movie.

viv and i went to bishan to buy bbtea. actually wanna to buy the m)phosis slipper but end up never.

then bus back to amk, chit chat and went to meet kaixian.

ate at sumo, then talked awhile with vivian and homed.

seeing you with her today made me feel so like crying.

i dont know why. i thought it wouldnt hurt so much. afterall things are alr over for so long.

sigh, when can i get over you? DDD: imissyou damn alot.

LIM KAIXIAN, my retardeeeee. HAPPY BIRTHDAY wor.

sorry for the budget board that viv and i gave. cause we broke and seriously we have got no idea wad you want.

hahah, iloveyou always.

although the day was quite unpleasant as many things happened.

but remember, it isnt anybody's fault.

hugs manymany. and thanks for everything that you have done for me. :D

2008-04-18T21:06:00.003+08:00

just came back from speechday. damn tired please.
hahah, the performance was great. :DDDD

other photos shall be uploaded tmrw. :D

~~if you cant seem to live together without quarrelling, tell you wad. might as well separate lah.~~
~~sigh, iloveyou both always. i just hope you wont end up that way. D:~~

2008-04-15T22:17:00.002+08:00

lessons were okay lah. just that some were rather boring.

the angmoh teacher from new zealand looks like the fu lu shou lah.

wth. had a nice chat with mr leow during science lesson. ((:

ate opposite with kaixian, ruiting and zoey. chit chatted alot. :D

then back to school cause there's dance at 2.30pm.

went 2/7, talked with vivian. went to hall for dance after that.

didnt dance much. went thru the dance steps about 5times? then tried costumes.

laoshi talked alot, but didnt managed to understand some things that he said. :X

back to class. slacked awhile. then went opposite with vivian to eat.

ran in the rain. LOL. damn cold, but soooo fun sial !

sorry sister, made you so drenched. :X

homed, bathed and chatted with marcus. :D

&haohao ! whr's my wangwang milk ?! LOL.

no point throwing tantrums. the past shall be the past. :D

LOOK FORWARD ! :DDDD

2008-04-14T20:08:00.003+08:00

those are the best memories i had. yet it's all gone now.
no matter what, there's little hope that i can get them back.
threw tantrums this morning, sorry. D:
but really, i felt so empty without those photos.

what's meant for you, will come back after it goes. if it go and never return, it simply shows it's not fated to be. D:
seriously, i miss him alot alot. D:

14o4o8. i will try, i guess ?

2008-04-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

outing with vivian today.

it's like damn long ever since we went shopping together lah.

so yeah, met at amk mrt and trained to bugis.

shopped around for my heineken shirt. and seriously, bugis is like damn sian lah.

finally found it. but we cant find the scarf we both want. so trained fareast.

thought have, so walked around. end up also dont have.

damn tired lah.

wanted to buy mango long sleeve shirt, so went to shaw house.

but then it costs $25, damn ex. so didnt buy.

i sooooo like it lah. D: gonna save up for it sial.

trained back to amk hub. walked around.

nothing much, so vivian bought curryO and greentea while i got lemon tee.

then went to some block to slack and chit chat.

around 6plus went to sumo house to eat.

back to block to slack again. homed at around 9plus.

sorry kaixian. ps you today. D:

hahah, VIVIAN POH WEN NI.

i love you always lah, my best sister !

you ah, dont keep having those negative thoughts.

must keep smiling.

the conversation that we had today, i hope you understand uh.

and it's gonna be secrettttttt. i felt so nice having a sister like you.

cause i can just talk freely in front of you. nothing to hide. :D

cheerup alrights, ai si ni le lah. :DDDDD

2008-04-11T21:08:00.005+08:00

was damn early today. so waited for zoey at porch.

then went to canteen to eat.

no assembly, so went to 4/2 to look for jiachern and then back to class.

no teacher, heh.

first lesson was english. damn sleepy.

tried paying attention to the lesson, managed to keep myself awake for awhile and got those stuffs in my head.

but after that buay tahan, so fell asleep. :X

went science lab for lesson. stupid monkey, kept deesiaoing.

copied notes. gladwin, kaixian, ruiting, kuanting and xuanpu kept having opinions with my body! RAHHHHHH!

sounds so wrong. hahah.

then was about to go canteen for recess. shouted damn many times monkey and ahmeng to revenge. :D

hahah. damn funny. had wanton mee for recess. then tried some of those food. nicenice. :D

maths after that. mr tan damn pekchek lah.

hahah, aiyah heck luh.

then went inspire town for geography. copied notes and slept for awhile.

CI and dismissal.

ate opposite, then chit chatted with vivian in her class.

malay after that and then danced.

damn tiring luh. kept repeating the same stuffs. heh.

bathed and homed with vivian after that. had ice cream ! :D

peied her wait for 159.

marcus called after that. :D

chit chatted for awhile. heh. you naughty piggy! :DDDDD

okay, im off to complete my homework!

so that tmrw can go gai gai. :DDDD

2008-04-10T19:50:00.003+08:00

overslept this morning, sorry zoey. made you wait damn long for me. D:

then walked to skul, chit chatted alot on the way. :DDDDD

actually wanted to take a short nap lah, but cheehon kept deesiao-ing !

assembly as usual. then first lesson was chinese.

had tingxie, hahah! didnt learn at all. so got tips here and there. ((:

PE sucked alot lah. mr singh and his crap again.

kept telling us how "wonderful" his generation is and how useless ours is.

YEAH, so wonderful until our pizza disappear. damn shit sial.

recessed. had prawn mee.

then went back to class for english. was sleeping. :X

went inspire town for lit, wasnt paying much attention.

had reading and then dismissal. :D

went opposite for lunch with ruiting & zoey.

we are such poor kids who can only afford biscuits. D:

hahaha! then went back to skul.

went to humans room to try those costumes.

damn nice lah! after that tried those makeups, heh.

rehearse the dance many times in hall. and were dismissed at 6plus.

bathed and then went home with cheeian, jiankun, ruiting and aleithia.

freaking tired now. D:

coursework is still undone, maths still dont understand & how am i gonna take SA1 like this?!

shittttt.

2008-04-08T19:09:00.003+08:00

today woke up damn early lah.
went to wait for 265 at around 6.40am

but the bus took damn long to come lah! wait until i super pek chek.

then reached skul late, they make us stand in rows, machiam suaku liddat.

but heng, attire check then dismissed back to class.

wheeeeeeeeee, no booking! kaixian still hoped i tio DC loh. TOO BAD ! :D

then home econs and chinese.

ate apples during recess. hahah!

went to lab for science.

damn stupid lah, i didnt bring specs to skul, so went to the front to copy notes.

and chit chatted with mr leow. i hope it helps luhhhhh. D:

then had maths, really buay tahan so slept.

actually i heard mr tan call my name, asking me to wake up but i purposely continue sleeping. :X

then he use papers to hit my head so as to wake me up. D:

after skul went opp to eat.

then back to class sleeeeeep!

went for dance at hall. super tired lah dey. D:

walked home with ruiting after that. :DDDDD

there's history test tmrrrrr. D:

sometimes i just felt that i dont know you well enough.

ass, you are making me worry. D:

2008-04-07T19:47:00.003+08:00

feeling damn tired today. D:

drank wangwang milk on the way to skul today.

& it feels so great. hadnt been drinking it since idk when.

then reached skul. chit chatted awhile and went for assembly.

miss gongkia LIM KAIXIAN left her tie at home i think, so peied her go tie-less. and lend my tie to jayne. :D

mr leow wasnt here so first period was free! :D

then had maths, got back our paper! & i passed luh! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

damn happy please. this is like the first paper i passed. :DDDDDDDD

then recess. ate and went back for chinese.

gan laoshi wasnt here, so his wife took over.

wrote yingyongwen. dont know how to write. :X

then zheshuo helped me. after that was english.

i slept thru out. damn sleepy. D:

CME, nothing much. slept again.

o.o i feel so like a pig.

went for home econs after skul. made brownies.

ours look so disgusting. but it tastes quite nice. :D

quarrelled with mrs kumar. she is so damn irritating please.

kept ordering us around, and she threatened to smash me with the pot.

almost fought. lucky there's gladwin, xuanpu & kaixian.

fucked up luh.

then left everything and walked away. who cares.

went to 2/7. waited for vivian to fold her stuffs.

walked to mrt at around 4plus 5pm.

met mum and hubed. then homed.

i shall work hard for my next ice cream! :D

2008-04-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

woke up at 9plus cause my phone kept ringing.

damn it. so watched tv and ate maggie mee for breakfast.

aunt went out after awhile & left me at home alone. D:

used com until dad & mum came home.

helped mum to fry chicken wings, but i think i gave her more troubles instead. D:

then peied her to blk 459. cause her friend held some birthday party there.

sang, drank and ate. called tracy but we both were not sure of whrr is whrr.

so nbm. didnt meet in the end.

mum say i looked drunk. cause i couldnt walk properly. ( quite true. (: )

but still hubed with mum. brought many things from NTUC.

helped her with the cooking & prepared for dad's birthday celebration.

small party, but i enjoyed. :D

& we drank beer again! :DDDDD

sometimes, it's really up to us to choose if we wanna be happy or sad.

i used to tear over him, cause those memories really break my heart.

but now, i wanna stay smiling and keep those unhappiness unknown. :D

VALERIE, LOVE YOURSELF !

2008-04-05T21:44:00.003+08:00

hahah. nothing much happened today.

woke up at 12noon i think. used com & took many pichos with my new phone! :D

damn pathetic. cause no one is home to cook for me.

thus, i had burnt eggs and hotdogs for breakfast. D:

then, went out at 2plus to look for mum.

peied her while she dyed her hair. the shop is having renovations. & those aunties were so funny luh.

the new wardrobe toppled down the stairs. WOW. & the boss only asked if the wardrobe is damaged. :X

hahah. homed at 5plus.

prepared and went out for dinner at 6.30pm.

the food tastes quite weird thou. :X
shopped around at dad drove us home at 9.3opm.

maybe going out again later to baibai. phew! TIRED please. D:

my brother! :D

2008-04-04T21:26:00.005+08:00

my energy level reached zero again. D:

assembly was okay.

class tee is damn hot please. so wore FBT till end of the day.

& i looked like i aint wearing any shorts at all.

lessons as usual.

no teachers absent. music is like so god damn boring; laughed my ass off when ms lau said she is annoyed. :D

slacking & smsing during geo lesson. D:

then after that cleaned the classroom. damn shit luh.

cannot have so many books stacked on the table. D:

so kept walking to the locker to put our books.

lunched. and had malay lessons.

cikgu kept thinking i will run away from the lesson. LOL !

then went for dance rehearsal. mac and homed. :D

2008-04-02T19:42:00.003+08:00

hahah, just love gladwin soooo much luh!
he's forever willing to take photo with me! :D
& his potato is niceeeeee. but his mushroom tastes kinda weird. :X

morning assembly as usual. nothing got booked. :D
& then chinese teacher didnt come, so free period.
chit chatted with kaixian, ruiting & victoriaaaaaaaa.
had history after that. copied notes. recessed with ruiting, gladwin & zoey.

science. i think i stoned alot.
thinking about smth. but i cant remember it nowwww. D:
like wth. then had home econs.
cooked potato dont know wad. tcheng & papa came.
& potato strips will stick together when it's fried right. LOL.
kept laughing with gladwin lahhhhhhhhhh.

maths remedial after skul. then danced.
peied vivian wait for her bus & i homed after that.
damn tiring dayyyyyyyy.

>>> tada! my potato! :D

2008-04-01T21:51:00.002+08:00

i have got this sudden urge to blog this out. i wonder why. D:

lim kaixian, thanks alot for always being there when im down. your words can be harsh at times, but they are just so meaningful. you make me go crazy, make me feel so retarded. but still, i enjoy times with you! :D

vivian my sweetheart. i love times when we do cranky things together. times when we have heart to heart talks. & when you eat your curryO and i have my cheese donut. :D hahah, seriously, our characters are just so different. but who cares, iloveyou still.

chuang ruiting. you can get so highhhh suddenly & start singing. but girl, you do have a talent for that uh! :D

haohao. SB, i can see your hair growing le lahhhhh. hahah, thanks for texting me when i cant sleep, when im bored, and when i seriously cant find anything else to entertain myself. :D & please, valerie sounds kinda weird coming out from your mouth. :D

skyang, the monkey. you can always make me laugh like someone mad, but sometimes, your words can really hurt alot. the heated arguement we had last time, it's really like WOW. hahah, the one thousand word comment really took me damn long to type luh. D: you might be older than me, but you do have your childish times too okayyyy. &&& this year isnt like some other years, it's important so please think before you act. :D

xianfu, my papa. the best entertainer when you isnt on your best mood. last long with mummy alrights! :D & yeah, must study hard, nlevels are coming!

thanksssss alot! :D LOVES, my friends. i will learn to cherish you guys, no matter wad happens.

2008-04-01T20:03:00.002+08:00

APRIL FOOL ! :D

morning was pranked by zoey luh. telling me she's at home when she's just behind me. -.-

and haohao told me something. but true enough, it's another prank.

then did graph at the canteen. damn tough. i almost fainted please. D:

MS CHUANG RUITING & LIM KAIXIAN sprayed some weird weird stuffs on meeeee.

cause it's april fool! :D

assembly ; got caught for my fringe.

mr khairul say pin or cut, of course pin lah!

then lessons, pranked teacher. but not successful. D:

recess, ate and played on the piano cause it's free period next.

maths was rather okay. i passed up my hwk okayyyy. CLAPS ! :D

after skul stayed in skul. waited for zoey's mum to come with kaixian & ruiting.

then saw xinlin, so chit chatted quite alot with her. & seriously, i somehow thought she turned prettier! :D

plus, her class de scenery is damn nice please. :DDDDDD

went back to class. copied notes. finn and xuanpu were so shocked lah. :O

walked to hub with hidhir and zheshuo. many thanks ya! :D

ate with mum and then homed at 7pm.

&&& i got myself a new diary.

cause skyangtiancheng the pro, got hold of my diary and peeked. o.0

some things are really hard to be blogged out. :DDD

2008-03-31T20:21:00.004+08:00

hahah. the red sky is kinda pretty.
wheeeee.

i enjoyed the whole day today! idk why.
super hyper! & that's good. :D
but kept having gastrics. even after eating. what's the problem with my stomach mans.
rah.

shadnt elaborate some stuffs which i found funny weird today.
i dont understand myself luh. why the reaction you gave sial.
FINE. you like him so much, stick to him then.
put a fire ring around him so that i can get near him. cool huh?

exams are coming luh.
gonna start studying alr. especially mathssss. although i still cant really understand much during lessons. but yeah, i will try de! :D

2008-03-30T21:28:00.002+08:00

wheeeee. back to blogging luh! :D

saturday

wasnt feeling well. but hahah, cause i soooo dont wanna stay at home so bused to sengkang to meet up with vivian at her void deck.
chit chatted for awhile. then she peied me to compass point to eat.
she bought donuts and milktea. bused home after that.

temperature hit 39.3degrees. HOT & COLD. D:

sunday

worse please.
sore throat & flu came. :D
what a nice one uh. had breakfast with dad, mum & bro.
then slept awhile.
went to chaochukang to shao mu. then came home, took medicine and im glad im feeling a lot better now. :DDDDDD

hope fever doesnt come againnnnnn.

2008-03-28T20:51:00.003+08:00

lessons as usual. & it's kinda boring to repeat the same stuffs everyday.
after skul went opposite to eat with jasmine & zoey.
wheeeeeee! i kept seeing different breeds of monkey today! ahmeng & monkey + qiangqiang! :D
then went back skul for malay.
slacked awhile & danced.
super tired & hungry please.

ate opposite with vivian. was raining so heavily luh.
the rain stopped when we are eating. & it rained again when we are walking. wth. =.=
had ice cream at cc before going home. waited for 159, & it machiam tortoise, take super long to come lahhhhh.
had a heart to heart talk with her. & it feels great! :D
homed at 8plus. :D

sometimes, it's better if we dont know the truth.
it's all in the past. & it seriously time to let go.
although heartaches are painful, & times when it hurt so badly, i just hope you are by my side. but it's impossible.
close my eyes, and hide from reality. that's wad i had been doing all these while.
your words made me feel loved, but your actions crashed my world, thoroughly.

2008-03-27T19:26:00.003+08:00

weilun, dont think so much le.
take good care, anderson will be so much less fun without a skinny monkey like you luh.
text me if you need anything! friends forever. :D

the day was kinda sad thou. D:
lessons as usual. chinese first then pe.
didnt bring anderson shorts. lucky not mr singh, if not sure needa see him during recess de lor!
saw that monkey sitting outside GO. talked awhile. then went to run.
ate wanton mee during recess.

english, geo & reading le jiu dismissed.
hubed and then back to skul for course.
were let off early at 3pm cause teacher need to leave early.
talked & played in the rain with zoey. thanks baby, im feeling better. :D
then went to hub to meet vivian, meiru & tenia.

homed at 7plus. after meeting mum & having dinner. :DDDD

2008-03-26T20:27:00.003+08:00

well, so many things happened in a day. D:
& im dead tired nowwww.

met jasmine, walked to skul & then did maths at canteen with zoey. :D
tiancheng & xianfu came. so chatted awhile & then went assembly.
first period was MTL. THANKS XINLIN FOR THE BOOK! :D
then went thru chinese history.
history next. copied notes & chit chatted with kaixian.
hahah, the conversation shall be kept secret cause it's kinda horny. :D

recessed. ate chicken burger & then went for science.
did corrections. then had maths.
i didnt pay attention today luhhhhh. no mood. D:
EFL & dismissed.

went opposite cause jasmine wanna buy bbtea.
had maths remedial after that. halfway thru went for chinese dance DC.
did jibengong with vivian. shadnt elaborate.
went back class for remedial.

danced & homed.
okay, im gonna sleep soon. :D
HUGS & LOVES PEEPO !
& i will pray hard for you de. :DDDD

this year is important uh.

2008-03-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

met jasmine at mrt & walked to skul.
stayed at canteen with zoey until assembly. got two bookings by mdm chan cause of my clips & belt. like wth lah. lucky i removed my earsticks.
then went for home econs. talked about practical exam.
chinese & then recess. ate sandwiches.

science. was damn pek chek cause the data logger is not working lah!
then dont care le, just go back class with nothing investigated!
waste of time. D:
maths. didnt pay much attention. cause i needa rush my book cover. D:
but still i handed in my 5.3 & promised mr tan 5.4 tmr. :DDDDD
art was damn slack today. mrs kamal was busy over other things.
so we were chatting. :DDDDD
after skul did maths & handed in. bused to hub to look for vivian & tenia.

homed at 3plus. then bathed and used com.
bused to cc to look for tcheng. then tracy, jiahua, weilun, jordan and papa were there.
so chit chatted with tracy. cheehon & mango came after.
they play basketball damn funny luh! then aaron, fabian and haohao came.

bused to 258 for their tua. kept kana suaned luh!
cause of those ahmengs, orhkee, qiangqiang, SB, short, bangala & monkeys!
hahahah, reached. went coffeeshop cause they wanna eat.
then went back. chit chatted awhile more & homed at 9.30pm.

sorry. i shldnt have think back. D:
im okay. reallyyyy. trust me, i can do it.

kaixian sweetsweet. :D
iloveyou alot sial. dont sad le.
i'm sure it will be found and returned soon. :DDDD
cheerup. LOVES LOVES LOVES !
if not i save up & get one for you this year ! :DDDDD

2008-03-24T19:48:00.003+08:00

hahah, nothing much today.
was kinda slack in school. cause periods before recess were used for health check.
& im perfectly normal. :DDDDDD

then recessed & had chinese.
after that english.
that teacher was like damn noisy. & he made us write two essays cause we didnt hand in the book cover.
treat us like primary skul kids! D:

after skul send zoey to the mrt & bused back.
did a little of maths & went to cc with vivian.
then did MORE maths questions. :D
papa told me if i continue on, i sure can pass maths de!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEE ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
ice creamsssssssss.

then bused to sengkang & back to amk to meet mum.
homed awhile after. :D

think before you act. :D

2008-03-23T20:18:00.003+08:00

i dont wanna carry on like this.
heartbreaks are really painful. D:
if loving someone hurts so badly, i would rather never fall in love again.

i'm strong and i can get over this.
i can get over you.
i can forget the past and move on with life.

i know i can. :D
im not a weakling.

thanks peepo. for giving me advices.
i shall try my best not to think about the past anymore.
it's alr over. there's alr a conclusion.
i cant change those facts anymore. just hope he treasure her & stay smiling always.

no matter wad, boy i still love you.

HOW MEIRU !
iloveyou alot alot! dont sad uh. must cheer up & smileeeeeeeeeeeee.
wheeeeeeee.

2008-03-23T14:41:00.004+08:00

BORED BORED BORED.
& there's skul tmr.
which means, midyear examinations are coming soon. D:
i dont wanna fail maths! i wanna eat ice creams lahhhhhhhhh.
hahah, sound so kiddish. :DDDDD
but who doesnt like ice cream! so im gonna start studying hard for maths!
wheeeeeeeeeeeee. :DDDDDD

im a nerd! i'm a nerd! i'm a nerd! :DDDDDD

2008-03-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

i was left alone, in a corner.
lying to myself. that one day you will come back to my side.
telling me you still love me. and you will be with me till the end of the world.

2008-03-22T15:39:00.002+08:00

Message: If a girl cries in front of
you, it
means that she couldn't take it
anymore...

If you take her hand, she would stay
with you for the rest of your life; if
you let her go, she couldn't go back
to being herself anymore...

(VERY TRUE!!!)
A girl wont cry easily, Except in
front of the person who she love the
most, she becomes weak..

(VERY TRUE!!!)
A girl wont cry easily, only when she
loves you the most, she put down her
ego.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you
please hold her hands firmly, she's
the one who would stay with you for
the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of
your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of you,
when she cry bcoz of you, Look into
her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n
hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried wif pure
sincerity, Infront of you, And bcoz of
you?

She cry not because she is weak, She
cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
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longer possible, the pain, hurt, n
agony have become too big a burden to
be kept inside...

Guys, Think about it...

If a girl cry her heart out 2 you, And
all because of you, Its time to look
back on wat u have done, Only you will
know the answer to it.

Do consider it. Coz one day....

It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

To my friends...

Ponder this message seriously.

Dont do this to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of your
life. Maybe in your life, she's the
only one that love YOU the most.

Girls.. If u eva cry 4 a guy u love a
lot.. repost this in 1703 seconds & use
tis title...

♥__if a girl cried for u__♥

sum1 special will cal u or text u in
an hour's
time..

Guys.. If u hav a gal who cry 4 u..
think wat u should do straight away.
repost tis in 707 seconds with tis
title..

♥_i know she cried for me_♥

you know i cried for you.
boy, im still not over you.
i still cant let go. & myheartisdyingrealsoon. D:
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou & i really do.

2008-03-22T13:32:00.003+08:00

if you opened it, you have to do it.
or ur loved 1 will be in an
accident.
Love Survey: You must answer every
question TRUTHFULLY!!

[01] Are you currently in a
relationship?
no.

[02] Have you ever been given a rose?
yeah, from friends. (:

[03] What is your all-time favorite
romance movie?
for now, it's skyoflove.

[04] There's no number 4
question.
LOL.

[05] Do you believe that everyone has
a soul mate ?
yeah.

[06] What's your current problem?
i dont understand why im so deeply in love with him.

[07] Have you ever had your heart
broken?
yes.

[08] Your thoughts of online or long
distance relationships?
they usually dont last. :D

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as
more than a friend?
thats for sure.

[10] The person your with right now,
do you want to spend your life with?
idontknow. i have got no boyfriend. :D

[11] How many kids do you want to
have? idontknow. depends. (:

[12] What is/are & your favorite
colors? black & blue

another love survey, cause i still cant get it posted on friendster & idontwant the person whom i love to die in an accident. :D

LOL. another boring day at home.
mum says bro and my new beds are coming TODAY. so yeah, that explains why im at home.
rahhhhhh.
maybe going out tonight. so shall update again later. :D

2008-03-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends
together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,
deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her
more than you, deny it. Fight back
and hug her tight so she can't
get to her friends, it makes her
feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you
whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the
waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about
her.

One last thing you need to do to show
her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her
car- it makes her feel protected,
plus it never hurts to act like a
gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything -
only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something
wrong, ask her- if she denies
something being wrong, it means
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT-
so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls
you know !!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. Don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the
morning and tell her have a good
day at work {or school}, and how
much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she
needs you, & even when she doesn't
need you, just be there so she'll
know that she can ALWAYS count on
you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER
BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT !!

31. Hold her close when she's cold so
she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE, hold her close
and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEKS (it will
give her the hint that you want to
kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm
around her and then she will
automatically put her head on
your shoulder, then lean in and
tilt her chin up and kiss her
LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even
jokingly or act like you're mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for
her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell
her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put
her head on your chest so she can
listen to the steady beat of your
heart. Link your fingers together
while you whisper to her as she
rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other
grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her, HOLD her in your
arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish
her SWEET DREAMS.
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe
away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love
her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how
much you love her and then bend
down to her face and kiss her
while sitting on her.

You'll never know when she needs
just a little bit more love

Repost this in 20 sec. or you will lose
the one you care about the most!

Guys Repost: "I will do this for her"
Girls Repost: "45 things a girl wants,
but wont ask for"

hahah, im posting this cause i cant seem to post it on fwenster. (:
LOL. second post of the day.
super bored please. D:

& vivian cant go out tmr. D:
i so dont wannt rot at home luh.
outing anyone? D:

i wanna eat the world largest & nicest ice cream nowwwwww.
YES i know it's fattening but it makes me feel better. D:
i dont want to have those moodswings. i want to control my mood & not let it go up & down as and when it like.
but i just cant seems to. D:

now i understand, wad heartbreaks are like, and how hurting they are. D:
they make you feel so unloved & so useless.

idk what i can do when he is down. D:
i so wanna console him. but now, im no longer the leading lady in his life.
it's not me whom he needs, it's her.

i need free hugs now. D:
anyone?

2008-03-21T18:41:00.003+08:00

wow!
i slept from 1o plus last night till 12plus today.
14hours of sleep but im still tired! okay, i know im a pig. :D

then rotted at home till 2plus. went to golden mine to eat.
idk whrr it is lah. daddy says it's somewhrr near beach road.
so ate spicy chicken & ice cream! damn yummy luh. :DDDDD
then walked around & buy chendol to eat.
homed.

BOY.

iloveyou truckloads.

2008-03-19T21:18:00.002+08:00

the day was okay i guess?
LOL. met zoey & walked to skul.
then chit chatted & went for assembly.

mr khairul asked about my skirt. & he told me thats the result of always leaning against the wall. =.=
forgot about lessons before recess.
hahah. didnt eat anything during recess. no appetite. D:
stoned for quite some time. kept thinking about it.

science after recess.
mr leow went thru spectrum and science workbook.
stoned again. D:
mrs kumar didnt come. so did maths for 2h.
thanks maisurah, xuanpu & zoey for teaching me. i know im dumb.

lunched opposite & then went for dance.
ms tan asked us to go at 2.15pm but she only came at 2.3opm.
wth lah. then did jibengong until the others came.
ms tan crapped damn alot today.
talked about ear sticks, belts and hair.
fcuk her lah, say until me. like im the only one with low belt liddat.

bonded with the sec1s.
enjoyed. but sweat alot also. damn hot.
after that went to cc with vivian.
hubed and dad fetched mum and i home. :D

please, i dont understand why i kept thinking about you these two days.
i hope tmr wont be the same. D:
boy, ily.

2008-03-18T19:58:00.002+08:00

hahah, i was early today.
sat outside at the skul bus stop for like 3o min waiting for zoey.
then went to canteen. didnt do maths today.
after that assembly.

i dont like the new timetable, seriously.
why cant they just stick to the timetable from start of the year to end of the year?!
rah, first period was english.
free period. so did advantages & disadvantages of smth.
then did the english worksheet with kaixian. :D

chinese next. hand in my compo.
then checked thru worksheets.
& finally recess.
fine, WANTON MEE again.
then chit chatted & went to science lab for lesson.
did experiments. i didnt eat or drink anything today lah! :DDD
thats a good thing.

maths. paid attention.
kinda understood the topic but i still dont know how to do the holiday assigment!
sian, why cant maths be a little easier? or shld i say, why cant i be a little smarter?!
rahhhhhhhhh.

art. mrs koh came & told us that mrs goh is expecting.
good news lah. but they are sending a relief teacher until mrs goh comes back.
cant they just ask mr khairul to teach us? better. :D

slacked in skul until 5plus.
did maths. & played with fans & cans.
so damn fun please. we put cans on the blades of the fans & made them look like raining cans.
but one of those hit me. D:
heh. but enjoyed! :D
then looked for mum at hub & homed after eating meesua. :DDDDDD

haohao my goodie goodie fwen! :DD
dont always rmb my posts! hahahah.
SB SB SB. growing hair le wor! :D

2008-03-17T20:59:00.002+08:00

tiring day.
slept at 2am yesterday night.
did my maths & chatted on the phone. :D
so was late in meeting zoey this morning. sorraye baby.

then walked to skul.
did maths until i damn pek chek. ROAR.
then went for assembly.
first period maths.
totally dont understand. lucky yun chuan sits beside me & teach me luh.
if not can die le.

then was english.
free period cause mrs goh wasnt here.
then recess. ate wanton mee again.
then ruiting & gladwin did some veh funny actions.
laughed like hell. :DDDDD

went back class for chinese.
i think gan laoshi was kinda angry. cause we kept talking crap.
then had science.
really buay tahan, so slept for awhile.

went to AVT for CME.
quite fun. :DDD
then went to hub for lunch.
homed at 7plus. (:

please grant me a bottle of memory eraser.
so that i can forget those unhappy past & move on with life.

2008-03-16T21:41:00.002+08:00

tiring day luh.
ytd slept at around 1am.
cause did my hwk. & i feel so uber guai.
although i left many blanks. & im starting to worry about SA1 maths. :X

woke up at 11plus i think.
vivian called me to wake me up.
told her im up but i went back to sleep.
so ate and went out. sorraye sweetheart, made her wait at mrt cause i was late.

then shopped around. bought cindy's pressie then met up with kaixian.
bused to the macs near my house to meet up with the rest.
and thanks for pei-ing me home to change.
bused to some place & sang karaoke.

sang, played, ate & homed with kaixian & vivian.
hahah. skul tmr.
kinda sian 1/2 but no worries! i will chiong chiong chiong!

JIAYOUS VALERIE !

2008-03-15T18:52:00.002+08:00

slept at 3am and woke up at 10plus.
went to skul to attend some briefing on subs combination for sec3
wasnt paying attention. was chit chatting with kaixian & jasmine.
then homed straight after. prepared & met up with vivian at sengkang lib.

bought 6 donuts. then did some maths questions. vivian helped me with geo luh.
after that walked around compasspoint. & she bought her favourite CURRY O!
hahah, homed after that.
talked alot on the way. :D

damn tired please. D:
tmr meeting vivian to celebrate cindy's birthday. :D
wheeeeee. heh.

all along, the problem just lies in me.
i have been avoiding and decieving myself, cause i thought it would make me feel better.
yeah, it did made me a little happier. but the wound is never gonna heal if i keep slapping myself with false hopes.
i needa wake up and face the problem, not running away from it.
nobody can help me if i just keep making myself have false hopes pinned on him.

this healing path aint gonna be easy, but i seriously dont want this whole cycle to repeat again.
it's so scary to know how fast he's done with one & moves on to the other.
but that's him.

idk how long i can still carry on like this.
sometimes the pain is far too painful that i felt like giving up.
but i just hope, one day i can stand proudly & announce to the world that i love him no more. TRUTHFULLY.

2008-03-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

tired now. D:
both physically & mentally.

woke up at 8am today.
cause there'e dance. so yeah, met zoey at mrt & then walk to skul.
waited at skul bus stop with zoey, vivian & sherene for cindy.
hahah, we were late for like 2omin.
slacked thru dance today.
& got booked by ms tan cause of my fringe.
wth lah, so needa come 1hr earlier next wed. ~~cheebye~~
she booked all 2/5 dancers & claim that we dont bond with others.
crap lah.

so changed & ate at bbtea shop while chatting with ruiting.
then off to jubilee to meet kelly to get my photos from her.
met up with fabian, tcheng & papa after that.
went arcade & then rose came. :D
played. then went to some place to slack awhile. jonathan, weilun & mango came.
bought andersens ice cream. went macs cause they wanna eat.
cheehon, haohao & ian came after.

chit chatted & trained to bugis.
went to BHG to get my pay. ( like finally! )
then they went to eat at some laksa shop.
so damn ex lah. they were shocked by the prices. :X
peied papa to bugis street to get his cardi & trained back to amk.

went cc slack while they played bball.
then met mum at hub. sian, still dont have that phone lah!
homed.

kept seeing him today. & i wonder is this good or bad.
i felt soooo idk. D:
sigh, wads all these mans.

2008-03-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

hahah, gonna use a spare phone now.
cause mum sold my phone when i havent got a new one.
she brought me to choose, but the designs i want were out of stock.
wth. D:
it's okay, mum says she gonna bring me to get a new one soooon.

damn tired please.
the GOOD haohao bombed me at 11plus in the morning.
& the reason for waking me up is because i told him to text me when he's up.
but cause i didnt reply, he bombed me. (:

used com while texting marcus.
then met kelly at hub for awhile.
shopped around. then she went to work & i went over cindy's house to meet vivian.
walked to HDB flat to meet tcheng & papa.
they kept talking abt swensens, red buttocks & changi airport.
& i suaned them back with ahmeng & bangala. :D

so walked to hub & met up with mum.
then homed.

wheeeee. i talked to him just now. :D

2008-03-12T21:49:00.002+08:00

pretty moodless now.
idk why. but i dont wanna carry on like this anymore.
why do i still cling on when he dont even seemed to bother.

sometimes i dont wanna see him. cause it just brings back the past.
there are good memories, those sweet smses & hugs.
but those arguements that we had, those vulgarities that he used to scold me made me so wanna cry. D:

i thought i could stand strong.
& not get torn apart so easily.
but i was wrong. so damn wrong.
i felt so like a weakling now.

i need time alone.
not emoing. but yeah, time to figure out wad exactly is screwing my life.
i dont wanna stay dumb & naive. THERE IS NO WAY WE CAN GET BACK TOGETHER.
no more avoiding & running away from this anymore.
im going to try my best, and live back the life i used to lead.

2008-03-11T20:21:00.002+08:00

i promised it wont affect me anymore but it still did.
i dont know why too, but everything seems to make me think back of the past.
missing him isnt the hardest part but the thought that i once had him is what breaks my heart.

people had been telling me how dumb & stupid im to be clinging on to him.
but i really cant get myself to forget everything. D:
no matter how much i cry, how much i think back, it's still a fact that we cant be back tgt.
he doesnt need me in his life.
to him, im nothing but ash. D:
boy, i still love you.
but as much as i love him, i know he will never love me. i realized that he hasnt been hurting me, but instead i have been hurting myself.
My heart wanted what it could never have.

2008-03-11T13:09:00.001+08:00

100308

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAH XIANFU PAPA ! :D

vivian called at 9plus. hahah, but i woke up only at 10plus.
prepared. (bro said i looked like singapore flag lah!)
bused to sengkang & chit chatted at her house.
then cabbed to hub.
reached at 2plus. saw aaron, xiaoling, sujie, weilun & one other girl.
so slacked outside hub. bought bbtea. rose & papa came awhile after.
then qiyu also. so went over to mrt to meet up with tcheng & cheehon.
then trained to town.

ate at macs. MCFLURRY!
cause vivian wasnt hungry, so i had her share of mcflurry too! :DDDDDDDDDD
then played at arcade. jonathan, ian & john came.
the game damn fun lah! i was like so noob. xiaoling & aaron damn pro.
then slacked outside heeren while xiaoling & sujie went to buy something.
talked to tcheng. he damn funny. we kept asking vivian questions. & she kept giving the wrong answers. hahah.
had another two ice creams. (: heh, im getting diabetes soon.
lek kang came & we trained to boonkeng.

asked around for directions. keep walking rounds and rounds.
had steamboat for dinner! wheeee. hahah, million thanks to lek kang, xiaoling, aaron, sujie & vivian lah.
cause i didnt know how to cook those food. kept making the food & the aluminium foil chaotah. :X
john, jonathan & cheehon kept suaning me airport lor.
cause i suan john tofu & cheehon orh kee.
the chicken was nice! but then too full le.
& lek kang, aaron, xiaoling & vivian thought i was drunk when i didnt drink any beer lah. cause i looked seh.

after that, we sang birthday song for papa & a surprise cake for him!
wheeee, he got so touched and cried.
then he had a speech. & somehow linked to three little pigs story.
think he's drunk or wad le bah.
took pichos & then trained home.

seah xianfu, that's what fwens are for wad.
dont need thanks lah! hahah. (:
one year older. must study hard & jiayous for your nlevels.
last long with rose ah! :D

talked to tcheng on the train.
he almost did something super wrong cause i dared him to. :X
reached home at around 11.15pm.
bathed and called him for awhile.
slept at 1plus.
super tired but i really enjoyed the day! (:

091008

slept till 1pm.
super tired please. :D
& i think i might be staying home the whole day.
hahah. it's okay. staying at home means saving money yeah!
LEAP YEARS soon, sweetie. [[[:

my face is starting to peel.
hope it recovers soooooon! D:

2008-03-09T19:45:00.000+08:00

hahah! bathed and went out.
met up with ruiting at macs. whoops, we made her wait.
sorraye girl, cause i was bathing. ]:

so went to buy tickets for SKYOFLOVE & went NTUC to get tidbits.
kaixian's shoes snapped on the way, so went to tentoes to get a pair of new ones.
then off to the movie theatre.
we are so damn early lah. so sat thrr & chit chat.

the movie ended at 6plus going 7pm.
& it's sooo touching & nice luh. most of them cried.
PEEPOS, it's worth watching. [[[:

then bused home.

having moodswings these few days at night.
i dont know why. but yeah, all the memories just flowed back D:
im gonna make full use of the hols, to think & reflect before i can really move on.
hope everything would be alright by skul reopen. [:
sorraye for making you guys worry, but i wont let this affect me anymore.

2008-03-09T14:02:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeee, im bored now. ]:
chatting online with SB & meiru.

my face is still chaotah & hurts alot.
not sure whether im still running a fever.

watching skyoflove later with kaixian & ruiting. [:
so gotta go prepare now! & that gongkia kaixian forgot her keys! so she's coming over to bathe. (:

2008-03-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

woke up at around 1oplus.
prepared, used com & went out to meet vivian. [:
hahah, i look so freaking red lah. D:

shopped around hub. & seriously there's like nothing there lor!
saw fab & claudia (separately lah!)
then vivian ate rotiprata.
after that slacked around & met up with tcheng & cheehon.
super LOL lah, both of them are really cute.

went to their tua.
vivian went to cousin's house.
tcheng kept saying i look like monkey's backside! ROAR.
sat there, chit chatted.
aaron came after that.
went off at around 7plus.

trained & bused. met kelly & kliang at hub.
shopped around AGAIN & then went to arcade.
even kelly thinks im red! D:
homed at 9plus.

the sunburns are hurting damn alot.
& im running a fever now. D:
buhbyes.

a great friend you are ; a best buddy you can be.
thanks for all those morning calls that you made to wake me up.
& those encouragements when im disheartened.
i'm sorry to have made you tolerate my childish acts & words sometimes,
but true enough, i cherish you as my friend.
you are always there when im down, to cheer me up with your monkey faces & cold jokes.
hope life goes on smoothly for you & dont feel too stressed.
im 24hr here. call me if you need me anytime. [:
but sometimes, batt low. auto shut down. not my fault le.

2008-03-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

xcountry today.
woke up super early lah. around 5.45am liddat. Zzz
cause many bombed me! wheee, lucky luh. if not sure oversleep de.
prepared quickly & met up with viv at sengkang.
trained down to harbourfront. waited for meiru & shermaine then went to meet kaixian & co.
hahah, lol. tcheng they all dont know how to go. [;

bused to sentosa.
did ran a little during xcountry.
gastrics hurt alot. D:
but we aint the last! lucky.

played sand with tcheng, aaron, haohao & fab.
cheaters! four against one. D:
tcheng, i will try and stop using the vicks inhaler lah. [: no worries.
then ate & participated in some activities. (:
went to palawan beach & played water with viv, kaixian, ruiting, meiru, zoey & jasmine.
trained & walked home.
chatted with haohao. [;
thanks SB. hahah, sometimes idk it myself. D:

im dumb & naive. maybe you're right my dear, i trust ppl too easily.
i needa learn how to let go & how to be smarter. D:

2008-03-06T20:04:00.000+08:00

hahah, true fwens are those that are true to you, 24hr on for you & keep your secrets secret. (:

2008-03-06T19:43:00.000+08:00

skul was okay. (:
met up with zoey. hahah, we left earlier than tcheng & xianfu but reached later than them. -.-
so did our hwk & went for assembly.
but cause the sky was dark, assembly ended veh early.

first period geo.
nothing much. i was trying my best to stay awake.
then had maths.
switched places with nat again so that i can pay more attention.
didnt understand one of the formula.

recess. ate wanton mee lahhhhhh.
was texting that SB. thought he was so clever to know wad im eating. end up he told me he knew cause he read my blog! =.=
free period next. cause mr leow went for some course.
did geo workbook & chit chatted.

had chinese.
did zuowen. hahah, was slacking the whole period lah.
then had lit.
didnt had lessons as mr khairul said it was our last lesson of the term.
had some sort of activity (idk wad it is called) but it made many cried.
cause we were supposed to think of something, be it happy or sad, just something.
and i got so emotional that i broke down. D:
thanks ruiting & many others who consoled me. im alright. (:

major chong made us stay back and clean the class.
got back report book.
flunked three, and got two As.
i swear i will try and pass my maths next term! JIAYOUS !

trained to zoey's house.
had roti prata and half a plate of carrot cake before going.
then did hwk and used com.
bused home after that.

eek, xcountry tmr.
needa wake up super early. D:

i thought i could stand strong. but during lit today, i realised i couldnt.
you made me feel so worthless. D;
boy, i still love you. i believe one day love will lead you back to my side.

2008-03-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

hello peepos! i'm tired AGAIN.
so yeah, woke up early today. so prepared & went to mrt.
i was earlier than zoey. FOR THE FIRST TIME.
reached skul & went to canteen to finish up the last few maths questions.
xianfu & tcheng came. hahah! dont know how to do also. (:

first period was art.
drew some funny funny stuffs.
zoey entertained me with cold jokes cause i looked bored.
thanks girl. (:

then had english.
damn bored. so yunchuan & xuanpu taught me how to play the rubix cube. :D
went for early recess. slacked in class until maths.
was sleeping on the teachers table until one teacher came and kp. D:

changed seats with nat.
paid full attention. (: wheeeeee.
efl. talked abt water safety and xcountry. dragged till abt 1.3opm cai end.
& congrats to 2/5 for winning the wheel of taboo! :D

walked to hub cause xuanpu and gladwin wanna eat.
had sushi. went back skul for cca.
dance was tiring.
talked to kaixian. :D

pei-ed vivian wait for her bus. (:
159 came veh fast today.
met mum and homed. (:

whee, i realised im much more fortunate than you. (:

2008-03-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

the day was tiring alrights! D:
reached skul too early, so sat at the bus stop to wait for zoey.
then went to canteen. xianfu & tiancheng came. taught me some maths questions.
then they sent me back to class. on the way the stupid lame monkey told me a secret & im not supposed to throw it away. LOL!

english was boring.
i fell asleep okay. couldnt tahan.
next was maths. switched places with nat.
paid full attention okay! & i did his hwk. (:
wheeeeee. i just hope i can pass maths next term.

recess. ate wanton mee again.
then took calvin's cake from the canteen auntie & went back to class.
sang happy birthday to him & ate the yummy cake.
played with the cream until mdm hee stared at us. :X

science. mr leow was so pissed off that he walked out of the class cause our class is in a great mess. :X
cleaned up & asked him back. SORRY MR LEOW.
carried on with the lesson.
i was sleepy. but i didnt sleep. copied notes & went for home econs.

SB haohao kept suaning me luh!
ROAR! im only fourteen alrights. will grow de lehhhhhh. hmpf!

home econs. kept talking to gladwin & kaixian.
wheeeeee. mrs kumar was annoyed.
did workbook then had history.
lesson was alright. & i swear this is like the first PROPER history lesson that we had.
mr khairul came after that to give out meet the parents forms & anounced top ten.
i came in top ten. (counting from the back. :X)

went opposite pei-ed gladwin, calvin & zoey to eat & went back to class.
did science research project.
damn hard luh. & complicated. asked mr leow for advices.
then slacked in class with ruiting, kaixian, jasmine, zoey, cheeian, hidhir, nat & many others.
jasmine & zoey left first. played songs & i went EMO~.
Zzz.

met meiru, vivian & tenia.
went to hub. ate at MOS.
saw tracy and company. they wanted to go CC so went along.
but ended up dont know why, didnt go. stand there and slacked.
pei-ed vivian wait for her bus & then went bishan to meet mum.
HOME SWEET HOME ! (;

alrights, im tired of everything. i tried my best to let go. D: mylove ; my boy ; the past. D:

2008-03-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

hahaha, skul was okay.
and got back some of my results. pathetic.
i flunked maths, english and lit.
o.0 how dumb can i be.

after skul took 76 to paya lebar. cause meiru wanted to take out her extentions.
after that went to eat LJS. and bused back to amk.
pei-ed vivian wait for her bus and crapped damn alot lah. wheeeee.
then took the new 265 back home! (:

alright. im pretty moodless. D:
and i finally realised how worthless im in your eyes.
yeah, to you im just some fucking bitch, who shldnt be alive huh.
my life is in a mess and it's fucking screwed. wow, congrats valerie!
HONGSTER NEVER DIE. TIONGXIM FIRST TO DIE.
it hurts to be faithful. D:

2008-03-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

okay. tired.
sigh, i seemed to be complaining that im tired everyday.
seriously, something is wrong. veh wrong.

was on the phone with tcheng from 12plus to 1am.
we sounded like some kindergarden kids quarrelling.
LOL. cause we are using chinese idioms to shoot each other.
hahaha, we even flipped those idioms books lah.
and his chinese is like o.0 he used chang nian lei yue to form a sentence.
which really made me laugh my ass off.

texted haohao for awhile.
went to sleep. (:

woke up at 9plus.
my phone kept ringing. shld have turned on silent mode.
so nevermind. then mum came home.
bathed, had lunch and then trained to causeway to meet zoey.
LOL, sorry girl. i was like soooo late!
went to library. studied abit. and crapped alot.

went to causeway awhile after and shopped around for earrings.
ate at macs and i did maths while zoey studied her sci and geo.
wheeeeeeeeee.
back to library cause she wanted to borrow books.
saw jasmine and jayne!
borrowed books and then went popular for her to buy books.
wow, i feel so guai. :D

bused home after that.
i thought i missed my stop. cause the bus took damn long to reach my house.
okay, buhbye peepos! lovesssssssss! :D

2008-03-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

woke up and met vivian at amk mrt today.
heh, i was late. sorry! then trained to yishun to pierce tragus.
after that trained bugis to shop.
bought one top. vivian bought heniken shirt. but cant find her formal top.
so wen to fareast. but also dont have.

saw that pikachu pouch lah!
i so wanna want. but veh ex. so didnt buy.
then went to causeway. ate at macs.
i trained back to amk to meet mum cause having dinner outside.
vivian went uncle's house.

ate and homed. tired please. D: